It happened so fast...or to her it was, her intoxicated mind couldn't tell the difference. Bianca stared at her older brother..ignoring everything he was saying. His words meaning nothing...they didn't matter to her anymore..nothing did. She did all she could to keep it together but he kept on. She looked to her left at Willie passed out on the bed....he was beyond drunk. He told her he was sorry, then threw up on himself.
She was confused.
Listening to Carlos talking, made her sick. She stared at the room...random pictures on the wall....she didn't even know whose house she was in, just another random house party that shes dragged to. The music from the living room echoed in...she broke a sweat....the walls closing in. The music kept pumping...going to the beat of her heart...it kept getting louder and louder...she felt it pulse through her...she closed her eyes...and the voices were gone..she felt calm...she let the music just enter her...its push through her mind...and then SNAP!
...the music stopped...
Groans heard from outside. She tightened her grip on her hoody sleeves...her brother still speaking to her right....Willie smelling like crap to her left....and she stood up.
"Bianca?"...looking only at the door.."Where you going?I'm not done"...ignoring his words..she walked out of the room.
Leaning against the wall she stared at the crowd...the music back on...this time she didn't feel it. She didn't feel anything. Even as she pushed through the crowd she didn't feel them push back into her...a drink spilling on her..she just kept walking..reaching the door...they opened it at the same time.
Marcus stood there staring at her. "You ok?" he asked....
"Leave me alone.."
She pushed him aside and ran out..down the stairs and out the door. It was drizzilin. She felt a grab on her hoody and turned around....it was him..and all she could do was swing at him. Dodging it he tried to grab her hands..using her weight she pushed him against the wall...freeing her hands she swung over and over...managing to get one hit before he picked her up..and swung her around so she was against the wall. Crying out in pain..Bianca couldn't hold it in anymore and cried. Feeling Marcus letting her go...she dropped down to her knees. She stayed there and just cried..leaving him there to hold her..as the rain fell on them.
-written either 2006-2007
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