it rises as the sun

She watches the sun come up...thinking of the person she is. Spent most of the day drinking yet felt no affect. No tiredness or fatigue. Watching those around her as they war with each other. Tension building as she only stares no words out of her mouth. She thinks of what she's holding down...for what cause? Is it the cure for her loneliness? Or desperation to have the extended family she wished she had? Stupidity is the word in her mind but she also is one who knows too much for her own good. One who was taught lessons she did not ask for and now feels a weight on her shoulders that she wishes she can throw off. But then what is she left with? Its all she knows and like a glass shattering on the floor she runs chasing a victim to release frustration on. Snapping, swinging nothing makes sense. She knows what the consequence will be if she let's it all go. To face a side of her hidden inside ready to rise as the sun in the morning sky.