September 27, 2011

sounds easy but it isnt.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.
                                                         -Bob Marley

September 13, 2011

another mindless rant

http://gawker.com/5839947/comment-of-the-day-how-friends-destroyed-the-middle-class
Ok so its a little out of what I'm usually blabbing about. But sometimes there are more interesting things in life besides being emo lol.

I read it cause I was curious and also because I'm constantly on Gawker.com (never heard of it check it out great articles about life and interests).

The economy right now is in a shit hole. Finding a job is almost impossible even if you have the degree to back you up. Renting an apartment now includes giving up your first born child in a ONE year lease. And even going out to a nice place such as a Bronx Zoo and being able to see an actual animal is $30 a person (its an all inclusive pass to see everything, yes they charge to see certain animals smh). And yet from what I recall when I watch T.V. ( I rarely do) everyone has money to do what they want, be who they want, live where they want, etc.

I couldn't stop laughing at the post becuase it has truth in it. I have a silly BA. All I was able to get was a job I was nowhere near qualified for and had to quit due to fear of being sued. I ended up 6 months unemployed not able to find anything in anything. At long last I found a job working at Aldo being in charge of accessory shipments and refilling handbag walls. Not what I imagined when I graduated college. I spent 5months there meanwhile I managed to get into substitute teaching for a day care and as of September I am now an Assistant Teacher for a day care program in Queens.

All this, and my BA is in film. So all this time and can't even get a script right or ready to shoot. And been on set for a few productions (at least I manged to score an imdb page lol). I didnt get out of school thinking I was going to make it big. No of course not, but I felt let down with looking for the stability that would allow me to pursue my art. Thats where things failed because its overlooked on some of these T.V. shows/ movies/ books, etc. What we see are people who get out of school, in fact some are show automatcially making it without going to school and they can do what they please and the reality of what I so far have experienced is ignored.

Now as I say all this I'm speaking on behalf of myself. Maybe for some they have the knack to make it right away. Me with my current sitios have not been so lucky and had to find ways to stay on my feet.


I wont say "Friends" destroyed the middle class I think its more that it stretched out the truth. I dont know much about new shows out (well besides Dexter, SOA, Jersey Shore and GG). So I don't know if the economy is now being played real. But it would be nice to see a drama where its opposite Gossip Girl and instead of focusing on Manhattans elite, why not focus on people living on a small block in Queens where money is tight? Where every episode doesn't include a gala or a ball in fact you get the occasional house party. Lets have the protagonists who've been out of high school for about 6-7 years but still living at home to help pay their parents rent because times are too hard right now to live on their own? You would still have the gossip, the sex, the blackmail, drama, and occasional comedic relief. Come on Chuck Bass could of gone to Newtown and still be the same playboy he is in the Upper East Side except he just chills on Lamont Ave smoking an L. Just switch his suits with a white tee, blue jeans and timbs and you can still have the same story play out. Maybe it's just me, but I think it would work, cause its real.

And I know some of ya are gonna be like Barbi Q. why don't you write this show, and maybe I will. But I have the belief that people wanna see what life can be like not what it really is.